Ivan Moody, the front man for Five Finger Death Punch, quit the band on the stage the other night at  show. He said he'd fallen off the wagon again, “I am embarrassed and ashamed to admit that I have fallen off the wagon again," Moody writes. "I was on shaky ground prior to our performance in Tilburg, and although a lot of the events of that show were out of my control, the shame of not delivering pushed me over the edge. It would not be fair to my band mates or my fans to continue to perform in my current condition. One of the worst parts of addiction is the loneliness you feel, so having the support of my band and all the knuckleheads is what drives me. I am committed to getting better so I can get back out on stage as soon as possible."


I struggled with alcoholism for years. This October, it will be NINE years sober for me personally.

It is a NASTY and complicated disease, and it brings out the absolute worst in people. Those of us who are lucky to have survived, did it with the help of some extremely loving people. Having said that, at some point something has to give. People have lives too, and they're not going to spend their entire existence on getting YOU sober. For Ivan Moody, my feeling is, it's getting close to that time.

And that bothers me.

I'll come back to that in a second.

In 2017, everything is clean, cookie cutter, socially acceptable and politically correct. If you're one of those people who ask, "Why is everyone so into FFDP?" - the answer is quite easy; they are everything every other band is not. They are the bad boys in a World of tea sipping, poetry reading, foo foo bands. The lead singer is a drunken powder keg. They have a VERY "FUCK THE WORLD" attitude, and we are DRAWN to it like a moth to a flame. The problem is, that what comes with that, is a very volatile situation from both a personal stand point and from a business standpoint.

The very thing that has drawn people to like Ivan Moody, FFDP and their attitude, is the very thing that's destroying it. It's a catch 22. When I would go out and drink, I was a really likeable person, a very social person who could talk to anyone and make friends instantly. Eventually I BECAME that drunk, fake guy. It was almost my identity, and the thought of changing that seemed overwhelming to me, because I wanted people to like me - and I wanted to be the life of the party. I cannot imagine on how much a bigger level Ivan Moody's problems are. It really is unimaginable.

Eventually, though, your time will run out and people will move on. Ultimately, sobriety is a personal CHOICE, and if you're not commited to being sober, there's no point. If you have YES people all around you, then you never realize the scum bag you've become. 

We've lost some amazing amazing musicians and performers in recent times, and Ivan, we love you dude and are thinking about you . . . we don't want to lose you. Take the time you need, go get better, and get back up on that stage!

With love,